“It’s something transparent, that only black can see. You can’t make a mistake, you can’t touch the shelf, otherwise they’ll think you’re stealing,” says the singer. “When this diva goes off the rail, you see that there isn’t all this welcoming.”
Out of the house, he says he underwent a two-month virtual detox, asked the team to change his passwords, erased his cellphone applications and now returns to virtual life with a series of videos that somehow have everything to do with his passage by Globo’s reality show.
Come K, her new project, will be published on the singer’s social networks. Created in partnership with her businesswoman, Fabiana Bruno, the series will talk about mental health and will feature interviews with professionals in the area, including psychoanalyst Maria Homem, essayist and columnist for this newspaper, in its debut episode, on the 15th.
“One of the biggest disappointments I had with myself was realizing how much I had left this issue of my anxiety aside, which reverberated in the worst way,” says the rapper. If it weren’t for the support of those close to her, she says she could be even more bitter. “I was going to say ‘where is the sorority, where is the mass black movement?’ It’s not rubbing your head, but showing support for the brother who made a mistake. Why, when a white person makes a mistake, do we see it en masse on social media?”
She feels that her right of defense and retraction is being taken from her. “It’s as if I’m not even black anymore,” says the singer, who says she was called a racist because she fought with another black participant, Lucas. “Communities fight each other, blacks fight each other.”
Karol says he’s not proud to know that his BBB raids have taken the reality show to peak ratings. “It shows how much people love to hate,” he says. The most difficult thing, he believes, is to give in to an audience that is clamoring for retraction and who, when they see a celebrity apologize, respond that she is lying. “It’s like I’ve committed an atrocity.”
In her view, the commotion should be on top of the demands on the government’s stance on the pandemic. “This deserves the energy to go to the networks or the streets and protest. Our anger had to be channeled into this. So, I’m hand in hand there with everyone outside death, apart from Bolsonaro. I’m rooting for the miracle to happen.”
Come K is the third project announced by the singer after the BBB. It comes in the aftermath of the documentary “A Vida After Tombo”, on Globoplay, which was a way for TV Globo to try to rehabilitate the rapper’s fame after the lynching. And from the song “Diluvio”, a single that talks about pain and suffering and for which she even changed her look — she now appears with curly locks and looks in lighter tones.
Before Big Brother, Karol says that he had never done any psychological follow-up because he considered this a taboo subject. “We cannot think that mental health is only linked to people who are in trouble. I learned not to wait to explode to go after [de ajuda]”, says the singer.
It was her manager who gave the ring as soon as she left the program. “When she left the BBB, we had a very frank conversation in which I asked her ‘did you realize it wasn’t cool?’”, says Fabiana Bruno. “The passage set off triggers on her that had been under the rug for a long time.”
The rapper says that, among friends and family, therapy has always been something distant. It was something for those who have money or are “fashionable people”, he remembers. The very idea of psychological counseling is often seen as taboo, especially among black people, according to Karol Conká.
“Because it’s like it’s not enough for us,” she says. The new project has a total of nine professionals in the area, six of whom are black.
Even scalded by the offenses she received, she says she doesn’t regret having joined the reality show.
And it doesn’t rule out the possibility of venturing into another reality show either. “I think depending on the situation, I would go in again. But, today, I say no, there’s no reason.” Out of the house for more than three months, Karol says he cannot be defined by the 30 days he spent on the program.
The hatred turned to her, she believes, may have been left behind. In addition to apologies and messages of affection, he reaped an increase in the number of followers on social networks — today, there are 1.7 million, more than he collected before the BBB, even with the escape of 300 thousand who were indignant with his posture on TV.
As for those who still insist on racist discourse, she says she wants them to watch her new show on Instagram and think “we hit her, but she’s there, full and wonderful, I think I’m liking her now”.